i begged for death but was given eternal life, by ruiner.

i begged for death but was given eternal life

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1.	forget about me when i die 03:16	buy track
2.	something much smaller and paler than death 07:48	buy track
3.	born into misery 07:28	buy track
4.	eighteen pills 06:02	buy track
5.	i should have killed myself the day you left me 10:00	buy track
6.	but now i will live forever 10:00	buy track
7.	an eternity in this hell 01:34	buy track

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i will live an eternity in this hell.

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released December 25, 2019

all noise and artwork by sophie bay threedouble.

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the ethereal soundscapes of sophie bay threedouble from lake elsinore, ca.

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